When I loose the weight I will...
be healthy and fit
fit in booths at restaurants
be able to ride on a roller coaster
go to the beach and not be too embarrassed to wear a bathing suit or have to wear layers to cover the rolls.
feel sexy
no longer dread trying on clothes
no longer make excuses to avoid activities that would make me uncomfortable because of my size
be completely self-confident and not fake it
fit comfortably in an airplane seat
be able to walk into ANY clothing store and fit in normal size clothes. Goodbye Lane Bryant! No more "plus" "womens" "extended" or "baby elephant" sizes!
wear feminine, daring, fitted clothing instead of frumpy hoodies, t-shirts and jeans all the time
wear dresses
wear sexy heels without wobbling... You can't balance a watermelon on two toothpicks!
look hot in lingerie
have better SEX! =)
have no more excuses for not going after my dreams...
be able to walk up steps without huffing and puffing and getting red in the face
have more stamina
be able to run a mile
feel healthy, strong, and energetic
fit in vehicles more comfortably
fit in seat-belts more comfortably. No more whipering to the airline attendant "can I have an extender please?" while everyone stares at you like you are a zoo animal.
identify as something other than a "big girl"
be an active person, have an active life.
be able to paint my toenails with more ease
have more room in the bath tub... maybe enough room for two?!?
not feel like everyone is staring at me when I'm in public
not feel embarrassed of my size
not feel like a odd or different... or less than someone who is fit
live and enjoy life to the fullest and not feel like I am just existing or faking it
like the reflection in the mirror... the whole refelection. Not just from the shoulders up.
wear sleeveless shirts
wear shorts
wear above-the-knee skirts
be less inhibited... in every area of my life
go on a long bike ride
not have a belly in the way... of everything
be able to cross my legs
be more flexible
not be hot when everyone else is cool
take pictures of my whole self and not just my face
not feel achey when I get out of bed in the morning
not have cankles. You know calf-ankles no seperation between the two.
know what it's like to be thin and fit
enjoy being thin and fit
feel desirable
feel sexy
not have floors creak when I walk on them
fit through turnstiles without turning sideways
have more room in the shower
roller skate
not be embarrassed to go to the doctor's office
not be embarrassed by the number on the scale
have the normal sized blood pressure cuff actually fit my arm
my thighs will NO LONGER rub together when I walk
not be the fattest person everywhere I go
be able to throw away all of my "fat clothes"
go on a shopping spree and get a whole new wardrobe
not have to worry if a blouse is long enough to cover my hips, butt, and stomach
not avoid getting my picture taken because I hate how fat my face and body looks
be judged for who I am, not for how much I weigh
not be perceived as a fat, lazy slob
see my muscles and my real shape... not mounds of fat
be able to feel my bones
not feel inferior because of my weight
not "hide"
not have to pull and stretch my clothes out before I wear them
not have to wear a girdle, waist cincher, spanx, or a corset
not have to walk sideways down the aisle of airplanes
be able to walk through narrow aisles of department stores and specialty shops and not have to turn sideways
fit into seats at any movie or theater
not feel compelled to lie about how much I weigh
fit comfortably in any chair with or without arms
not feel compelled to cover my lap with a blanket or pillow any time I'm sitting on a couch in order to hide my fat stomach
not be embarrassed of my fat calves when wearing capris
not have to wear an extender chain on short necklaces or bracelets
not hate my body and what I have done to it
not be depressed because of my weight
be in control of my life, habits, eating, body... not the other way around
You are really inspiring!! If I were to write a list it would have the same things you have listed.
ReplyDeleteA change is not gonna happen until we have had enough & once we have had enough, we start to take control of our lives and strive towards change and change happens.....like we're in the process of doing now. Keep it up!!! I was feeling down a little earlier but I'm glad I came across your blog.
Thank you thank you!! I totally agree with you, I just read something that Bill from the Biggest Loser posted on facebook to the same effect- Once you decide that you WILL loose the weight you will do it. When you decide that to you will TRY to loose the weight, you will not. You just have to decide you are ready.
ReplyDeleteThe funny thing is that I did not realize all the things that the weight has effected or held me back from until I started on this journey. I never really paid it much attention because I honestly never thought it could ever change. ever.
Kayla,
ReplyDeleteYou are an inspiration to us all! I applaud your change of heart and body.
I am cheering for you... GO GIRL GO !!!
You are so insanely brave. (You always have been.) I love this list and it's inspired me to make a long list of my own for when I want to eat way more than I should or skip out on exercising. It doesn't matter what size you are, healthy habits are hard to develop. I'm so proud of you for sticking to it!
ReplyDeleteOh, I thought I'd mention though... walking sideways in aisles? I have to most of the time as well, so you may never get out of that one... :)
Dear sweet Tovah-
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. I try to be brave, but I think for a long time I just faked it... It feels different now. Like I am actually aware of the moment while I am in it for the first time.
YOU have to walk sideways through aisles? no way. Well, I suppose I could live with that one if I could wear normal people sizes! lol